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Wanting What You Can't Have
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I havent been on this website since January, and I went straight to here haha! I'm glad you're starting to sort things out, wild lifestyles are only good for so long before everything comes crashing down. If you want to start getting more exercise, if theres a gym or anything near you, get your mates to literally throw you out of the door after you get home from work. It works for me :
[prillypopz]
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2006-06-15 08:14:09 |
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Wanting What You Can't Have
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Wow, this is kind of scary. That whole paragraph on Mitch...it's almost like you're reading my mind. I used to do the exact same thing. The thought of having an actual boyfriend didn't appeal to me at all, so I just slept around and didn't feel the least bit bad about it. Then recently I had a change of heart, just like you, and now I'm happier than I've ever been. I'm sorry for this pointless comment. It's just really refreshing when you come across someone in a similar situation as yourself. Take care. ~Rachie XxXxX [xSullenGirlx]
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2006-04-13 10:55:52 |
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Wanting What You Can't Have
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woah lol .. well tht is definately like high school lol well dw jus tlk 2 him like u DONT have a crush on him and then u'll become friends n then hu knws wat will happen  [dominiquebailey]
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2006-04-13 05:40:31 |
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Evil Bread
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I can answer this question for you if you like: "Why am I like this?"
Probably because as you were growing up, the media, your peers and other people around you put an emphasis on thin people being beautiful, and therefore you've based your perception of yourself, or your BODY-IMAGE, around what OTHER people deem to be beautiful. Problem is, you'll never be satisfied with it until you accept it for what it is and stop striving for what other people will think of you. It once used to be beautiful to be voluptuous, and now it's beautiful to be stick-thin, but if girls base their body-image on what other people dictate, they can never be happy.
I'm one of those people that needs to fit in with what it attractive to the mass population, which is silly really because in everything else I strive to be different. Looking the same as everyone else is kind of boring sometimes, and maybe one day I'll come to realise that and accept the shape of my body regardless.
Like you said at the end of your entry, eating healthy is important, so is exercise, but you can't motivate yourself to do either of those till you accept yourself for who you are and not set very high standards for yourself. Weight-loss goals are healthy, but only if you realise that it won't change people's perception of you. You might lose a ton of weight, but then when you're stick-thin you still won't be happy because you'll still be you, on the other hand, if you build up your self-image and realise you're an amazing person no matter what size you are, then losing the weight will be a healthy goal, and when you do lose it, you'll feel proud, but you won't think you're any better of a person than when you were a few kilos heavier.
Anyway, I better get off my soapbox now and actually start listening to my own advice...
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-28 17:01:01 |
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And Now Today
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I can understand yours and Suz's guilt over bitching about Lola, but if you really want to improve the situation I suggest you have a talk to Lola and tell her why you've been acting the way you have, and explain why you don't like it when she bitches about Ireland etc... I mean, Suz can apologise and buy her a sandwich, but then it's not going to change the fact that Lola is irritating you both. Maybe if she's aware of what she's doing to piss you both off, then she can try and change a little bit and make things easier on you guys.
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-24 19:22:00 |
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Yesterday
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I wish I had answers for a lot of things regarding past loves. But for better or worse, that's not possible, so we move forward and hope for the best.
I guess if Mitch doesn't have one stand-out think about him that will draw you in, he sounds like a nice mediocre guy. He's not amazing, but he's nice, and I guess you just need to decide if you will settle for "nice".
In the meantime, you and your internet girlfriend should conjure up a plan to get rid of Lola... sounds like she's transformed into the house-mate from hell.
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-24 04:07:05 |
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Smelling the Flowers
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Isn't it ironic that when you finally find someone you feel comfortable with, there is some added complication: eg, he has kids.
Ahh well, you don't know what will happen, just go with the flow :)
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-22 08:21:41 |
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A Proper Date
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"Specially cause he’s such a sweet guy and a lot more sensitive than the roostery front that he puts up."
It's always the way, the roostery guys end up being the really sensitive ones once you get to know them.
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-21 08:56:37 |
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Lovely Long Weekends
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Hehehe... I like the sound of Mitch... you should go to dinner with him :)
xoxox
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2006-03-20 19:12:01 |
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Lovely Long Weekends
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Please sign this petiton! It is to stop quizmania getting moved from ITV1 to ITV2 Even if you havent heard of it- please sign it! http://www.petitiononline.com/qzmania We need names! Love xxxx [AnnaandCat]
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2006-03-20 11:06:08 |
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St Patrick's Day 'Eve'
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Happy St Patrick's Day.
Isn't that a book? "He's just not that into you"... it's a book I think.
If he's texting you, it means you're on his mind... maybe he has other unresolved issues to deal with? I wouldn't hold your breath on that one though, he sounds a bit, on and off.
Green tea helps keep your appetite to a minimal level when you're down, at least, it worked for me last night :)
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-16 18:09:02 |
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Comfy in my Brain
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Bitching about your friend is normal, you're a girl, that's what girls do. But I suppose if she's starting to feel unwelcome and alienated you have to ask yourself what you're going to do about the situation. How long is she staying with you guys anyway? Is it short enough to be tolerable, or long enough to be unbearable?
I worry about losing my boyfriend because no one else will love me as well... but I think in the long run, if I wasn't in love with him (my boyfriend) I'd break up with him and prefer to be single and miserable than in a relationship and miserable.
It's all fate. Some things just happen the way they do, and some things can't be changed.
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-14 19:51:10 |
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Low Low
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My dad bought Extra Virgin Olive Grove margarine the other day... mmmmm... sorry, I'm probably making it worse :P[ripples]
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2006-03-09 17:55:37 |
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Low Low
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yeah i'm feeling down too! [~stella~]
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2006-03-09 11:48:18 |
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"They turn you into a fat sh*t!"
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Some forms of anti-depressants make you gain weight, but not all of them do. You should also know that medication alone will not be very effective at all in treating your depression. I mean, you'd have to know first if it really was being caused by a chemical imbalance in your brain or if it was caused by an external problem. If it's caused by an external problem, the meds won't do anything to fix it. It's best to actually speak to someone first (doctor/counsellor/psychologist) and then after a few visits determine whether you want to treat it through therapy/counseling or combine the counseling with medication. Sometimes if it's a mild depression you won't even need to go on the meds. Don't fall into the trap of going to the doc and having the doc prescribe you to meds without first looking into the problem, cos that might actually exasperate the problem.
By the way, I hope you don't mind me regurgitating all this info to you. I'm a psychology/psychophysiology student and I have cyclothymia (well, it used to be type II bipolar disorder but apparently it's less severe now or something) myself so I'm not just ripping sh*t out of no where :)
It's starting to get cold in the morning here in Aus too *shivers*
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-08 16:21:00 |
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Lola...la la la la Lola!
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Ahhh, glad you have your friend from home there with you. I can imagine it will be good for you to have someone you're friends from home with :)
As for Patrick, he sounds like a moron, lol!
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-07 19:57:24 |
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Lola...la la la la Lola!
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will you answer the questions in my diary please[Undiepiks]
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2006-03-07 10:59:09 |
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The Language of Love
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I like the sounds of Luke. Did I say that in your previous entry already? Anyway, yeah, he sounds like a nice boy (haha, I sound like my mum now).
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-07 06:39:01 |
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The Language of Love
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Thanks for your comment.[thin to be]
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2006-03-07 06:30:38 |
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Picked it and Ate It
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 [Jazzeh]
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2006-03-03 07:23:17 |
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Picked it and Ate It
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Eeeewwww... that woman who ate her own snot should be on medication. STRONG medication.
I like the sounds of this Luke guy. Not because he was a one-night stand, but because you mentioned you talked heaps. It's always a good sign when you can have good conversations with a guy, it means you won't get bored of each other so quickly.
Enjoy the house party :)
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-03 07:18:53 |
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My Darling Mother
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hey Nat! good to have you back! i've missed your entries. I must say, you had quite a time in that last entry. but i hope all goes well with you and i wish you the best on your plan. im glad you could tell someone how you truly feel and get encouraged by it. cause that's what mom's are for, right? cya, much love [icanshocku]
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2006-03-02 08:53:05 |
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My Darling Mother
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You mother sounds really lovely, and it must be good to have her to confide in. That plan sounds like a wise one, and I hope it works out for you.
I hear Ireland is really green... maybe you could go on a picnic, do some reading in the sun? Oh, but wait, it's still cold there right? Hmmm... sorry hehe... maybe you could still do that though, but wear warm clothes so you don't freeze your tits off! :P
[ripples]
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2006-03-02 05:46:31 |
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"Suck it Bitch!"
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Thanks for your comment Nat, it's ood to have you back! I missed your entries.[thin to be]
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2006-03-01 18:15:42 |
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"Suck it Bitch!"
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Thank you for the lovely comment. It’s nice when people don’t automatically brand you a bad person. I think I did what I did because I still wasn’t sure if I really wanted to be with Dave, but now I know I do and James is history. And that’s a promise.
Hope you’re well. 
~Rachie XxXxX [xSullenGirlx]
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2006-03-01 12:52:01 |
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"Suck it Bitch!"
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Thanks for the comment. I want to go to Ireland so bad. lol. Thats my heritage.I'll get there .... someday ...[faeriekissed]
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2006-03-01 07:24:11 |
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"Suck it Bitch!"
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The nature park idea probably seemed like a great one in theory, till you had to stick it out for a few nights and realised how much you take advantage of your city-lifestyle. I am much the same, the thought of camping out appeals to me, till I have to pee in the bushes, or till I have to wash my face by the river or something bush-like like that.
As for that guy, he was desperate. Not because there's anything wrong with you as a person in normal circumstances... but the fact that he was still keen on kissing you when you quite obviously tasted like vomit-relish. Hmmm... he's definitely a sicko. He could have at least taken care of you for the night and tried to get some the next morning when you weren't half-dead and lying in a pool of vomit. Ahhh boys.
Good to hear from you though :)
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-03-01 06:46:28 |
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Australia Day!
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Happy Aus day...cool you live in ireland do ya? so do i !!!!!!!! [xxxrachxxx]
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2006-02-18 15:31:20 |
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Australia Day!
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Happy (belated) Australia Day :)
I hope you enjoy your trip across the country.
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-02-06 03:43:01 |
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Australia Day!
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I wanted to just thank you for all your comments and stuff, I really do appreciate them. Just so you know, I'll be starting a new diary under the name of "JosephK" - It says so in my last entry, but just in case you don't get a chance to read it before I retire it permantly, I wanted to let you know. I remember you had written about going away so I figured you might not have a chance to check in on MDD. And by the way, best of luck with that. Honestly, from everything I've read in your diary, I think it will be great for you. Getting away from everything can really do wonders, make you re-examine a lot about your life .. all that good stuff. So, good luck, enjoy yourself, and thanks for reading my now old diary.[FacelessAlienRebel]
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2006-01-28 14:59:23 |
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Australia Day!
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Happy Aus Day to you,Nat!! :) [delittleone]
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2006-01-26 05:02:43 |
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Shifting Brains
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o noooo! she's found her marbles again. i think you're mad - mucking out horses and all that? in ireland? the cold? rain? wet? ew? *shiver* fair play, if that's what gets you exicted then go for it. are you still going to be able to update here while youre away?
nd girly giggles are so amazing... i wish i still had them :( sniff. *queue new entry about missing old friends - thanks lol*
xxx
[prillypopz]
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2006-01-25 07:45:49 |
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"You can't go!"
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Hehe, this cracks me up. Maybe I'm just really f***ed up, but when I told my friends I might be moving, they were so supportive and happy for me, and I was like, "Screw you bitches, aren't you going to miss me?!"
Ugh, I had all these cool, wise things to say but I've forgotten them. Too hungover! Okay, well, chin up, soldier! *shrugs* Yeah, I don't know what I'm talking about either.
[TwoShoes]
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2006-01-24 19:53:53 |
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A Grogless Weekend
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thanks Nat - much appreciated!
Have a great time with nature..[thin to be]
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2006-01-24 07:57:28 |
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A Grogless Weekend
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Yes, I have to agree, I have never had fun at a party or bar around a bunch of drunk people, unless I was also drunk. It makes sense though doesn't it? heh
You're Australian aren't you? I am too BTW. Well, Greek/Australian. Live in Melb. Where were you living before Ireland?
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-01-24 04:41:00 |
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A Grogless Weekend
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well it's good that you were able to stay off the booze for a little bit. isn't it? you see the world as it is, and you can make fun of the f***ed up people and feel superior to them, knowing you made a better decision that day. and Dan now sounds awful. very disturbing. eh...practically made me wanna be there and slap him for being so disrespectful. i guess it's a good thing you see him the way he is, that way the crush isn't as intense and our minds think clearer that way. but im pretty sure that in a few later moments you be back on boys... lol...bitching about Ireland. is there lots to bitch about? i do it too about USA. our president is one hell of a leader and he's got the world laughing at him....so there's much to bitch about, and it's very entertaining - i find...lol [icanshocku]
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2006-01-23 12:36:15 |
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Nature! Bring it on!
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Well, better you than me! There's no way I could stick that out! But it does sound really cool and challenging so good luck with that.
And I think that it's good you haven't drunk for a week. It seems like a long time to me. Worked out the other day that I haven't had one non-drinking day this year.
Okay, well good luck with your adventure.
[TwoShoes]
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2006-01-20 20:46:53 |
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Nature! Bring it on!
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Hey, I saw your comment in FacelessAlienRebel's diary... and I read a couple of your entries. You sound interesting. I'm adding you to my faves list if you don't mind :)
I am that weird girl Kerry that Garrett speaks of sometimes :P
xoxox
[ripples]
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2006-01-20 09:56:37 |
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Not preggers!
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hey thats great ur not pregnant i had a scare a few months ago it was heaps bad but then it turned all good haha[mnim182]
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2006-01-19 10:54:31 |
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Not preggers!
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omg ive just read your entire diary from start to this entry - its like a story!! you could honestly throw this all in a book and it'd be great! haha.
darlin, condoms arent just for stopping you becoming pregnant - but i guess you know that, right? go get checked up? easier said than done, anno!!!
why is it that so many blokes say 'wish i was still in bed with you' - how f***ing cheesy is that?!?!?! its like, hi, originality pls. nm. anyway, im gonna keep checking up on your diary, your life is more interesting than mine!!
[prillypopz]
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2006-01-19 10:34:26 |
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Not preggers!
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Oh my gosh, tht was a close call. But it's great tht it turned out alright. Thanks for ur comment and looking forward to read ur entries. Luv yas![thin to be]
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2006-01-19 09:39:30 |
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January Blues
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Yay! Ur back. Good luck with losing weight -- u go Nat! [thin to be]
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2006-01-18 20:20:09 |
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January Blues
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hey Nat! i've missed ya! good to hear you're back to a job with the net. you seriously have to go through all that trouble to get on the net in ireland? woah. good for you on new year's and your b-day (omg you are so old! lol....no, im just kidding) about the "fat issue". we are all going through that. i feel the same way you do. but at least you don't live in the fattest country in the world. americans are the most obese people. i think it's a pretty sad statistic. anyways,...just keep going with the flow as regards to boys. sorry to hear that Dan feels that way about you, but at least now you know. peace <3 [icanshocku]
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2006-01-18 15:10:12 |
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Seething Inside
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I miss ur entries[thin to be]
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2006-01-17 08:31:45 |
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Seething Inside
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i know what you mean about friends becoming f***ing irritating sometimes. i got the same problem with one of my best friends, i love her so much, but sometimes she really needs to keep a distance from my f***ing life!!! the whole privacy thing - i am totally with you on that. i absolutely HATE it when people are trying to look at what you're doing, and im still living with my parents, so i get it from them everyday...sux like hell - that is what i hate the most in my life i hope operation Dan (phase 1) acheives success [icanshocku]
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2005-12-22 03:20:39 |
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Seething Inside
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i love how you put "Luv Nat" at the end of this entry... ha ha ha but yeah, i know what you mean... i can only handle people in SMALL doses... and yeah, it gets on my LAST NERVE when people look over my shoulder...its like , BACK THE f*** UP!!! ha ha ha ha [glassangel09]
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2005-12-21 14:46:31 |
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Enough is Enough
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yes, bloody boys - though we would never say that in america,...something like the hell with boys, or f*** them is more like it..lol thanks for calling me a nice person...i try to be, [icanshocku]
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2005-12-20 11:18:08 |
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Enough is Enough
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sounds like a good plan, i hope you can carry it out and it works well for you,...[icanshocku]
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2005-12-20 10:17:08 |
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Sloppy Seconds...
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Hey. Thank you for your comment. The more I think about it the more I realise that life would just be boring if I was a goody little two shoes all the time. It feels good being bad. :-)
~Rachie XxXxX [xSullenGirlx]
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2005-12-19 12:06:06 |
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Sloppy Seconds...
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Ha, what a crack up. You guys remind me so much of me and my friends, except the whole 'can't date him cause he's part of the group' thing, because we all hook up with each other. Actually, not so much recently, but we used to. Anyways...
Yeah, sloppy seconds is a horrible term. I only said it to turn him off. Obviously, it didn't work. But if you're friends are anything like mine (and I think that they are) somebody will do something crazy next weekend and they'll forget all about it.
Have a very Merry Christmas! xo
[TwoShoes]
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2005-12-19 08:08:39 |
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Boys, boys, boys
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Love this entry, it was hilarious and fun![thin to be]
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2005-12-16 00:52:07 |
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Boys, boys, boys
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Hey Thanks for writing in my diary Nat. It's cool to know someone is rooting for me. [crowdpleeser]
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2005-12-15 10:47:21 |
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Boys, boys, boys
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ooo, im jealous, i would love to work where you do,...i pick up languages really easily, and all those cute foreign boys sound so tempting..lol, (im part italian myself, and yeah, from your description i'd do the italian, and the "supposed" Spanish)[icanshocku]
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2005-12-15 09:14:30 |
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Boys, boys, boys
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wow cute boys[serebii15]
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2005-12-15 08:48:52 |
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Boys, boys, boys
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hey lol sin ya entry n i agree tha italian guy sounds cute  [whitexangel]
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2005-12-15 08:43:09 |
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Wasted weeknights...
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Thanks Mourn. Actually am already feeling more positive. Yay. Feel a bit zany today. Cute but Shy Italian Boy said ciao to me just before. I think that improved my mood! Hope your day is going OK! [OzJewel]
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2005-12-15 07:17:12 |
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Wasted weeknights...
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Don't be so hard on yourself. When you're stressed out, living in new surroundings, or engulfed by temptation, it's not easy to keep on the fast track to healthy eating. I know you want to purge, but please don't. I used to do that quite a bit back in the day...and it's addictive, like anything else. Long term effects are tooth decay, possible eruption of the esophagus, death. If you really and truly put yourself in the right frame of mind, you can eat healthy and not have to worry about drastic weight-loss measures. You can do it. I have faith in you. [MournMassacreRepeat]
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2005-12-15 07:03:05 |
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f***ing with boys' emotions for a change
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player: a person with multiple partners (usually guys - they just want ass).....is it an american term you think?? 
[icanshocku]
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2005-12-15 03:59:23 |
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f***ing with boys' emotions for a change
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Yeah, it's summer over here... sunny days, cloudless skies and all that. Hee hee, sorry to rub it in! :) Where abouts in Australia are you from?[TwoShoes]
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2005-12-14 22:25:54 |
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f***ing with boys' emotions for a change
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I think that it's just a phase....... just don't look for Mr. Right..... and don't feel bad for listening to yourself....... if it was right to you then what does it matter what anyone else thinks? I know exactly what you are going through and if it makes you feel better... I just went trough it. So it's fresh on my mind...... just stay single and don't do anything you won't regret. Trust your conscience.... DoPeY [Ipromiseiwontleave]
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2005-12-14 10:06:51 |
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Backpacking vibrators
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Boy, have I EVER been where you are now. But not concerning the lack of ownership of a vibrator. I used to be on this strict ass diet back in the day. I barely ate a thing, and I lost a sh*tload of weight and ended up looking damn hot. Now I eat like a pig and I'm afraid of gaining a bunch of weight too. I'm glad you joined MDD. I'll support you 110%, because I feel like we're in the exact same boat, scarily enough. [MournMassacreRepeat]
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2005-12-14 00:12:27 |
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Backpacking vibrators
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Thanks for adding me. I like your diary too! Take care. [thin to be]
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2005-12-13 16:53:09 |
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Backpacking vibrators
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I've been in your shoes where frenz r concerned. I had frens who wud sit with me after a meal just to make sure I didnt purge. But they've given up. I hope u do well.. tho our goals are slightly different.[thin to be]
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2005-12-13 05:15:56 |
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Would I be happier if I were thinner?!
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welcome to mdd, and i hope you can reach your goal, i'll be rooting for ya[icanshocku]
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2005-12-12 08:02:25 |
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Would I be happier if I were thinner?!
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Good luck to ye honey, sounds like a plane aye. And do save me a little of the green stuff next time  [Drewy]
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